Words are so powerful..
Sometimes, they can be really wonderful and make you happy..
But sometimes, they can be very harmful and hurt you badly..
Most people that know me, they like to make jokes about me or even tease me..
But i know it well, they do it because they know i won't get angry easily..
But of course, everyone has a limit in accepting jokes..so do i..
Until some extent if i keep quiet about the things that you're saying, that simply means, i'm either not agreeing with your statement, i didn't hear that or i'm simply a bit angry and trying to calm myself down by changing a new topic..
I realised, not many people can understand me in this..eventhough we have been knowing each other for years..
And i always thought, things can be solve only if the problem/uneasy feeling is being told..but things aren't just that simple..
I know, i can be really rude in spilling out my bad feelings sometimes..
And i just did that to 2 person last night..one is my mum and one is YOU..
Well, i should just admit that my EQ is so damn low...i can't help it...
I don't normally spill out my feelings unless i really have to..
This time, i really have to because if i don't, i know i'm really gonna break down in no time..
First of all, sorry mum.. I shouldn't have shouted at you last night when helping you out..i know i always do that because i have no patience in explaining things over and over again while i know you're actually not paying attention.. I'll try my best to change this bad habit.. Sorry..
Secondly, sorry to YOU as i really didn't know that a few sentences can be so hurtful to YOU.. I know, what's done cannot be undone, especially to YOU.. My bad.. (>.<)
Thirdly, i ought to say sorry to Ting as well.. I know i did hurt your feelings a few times in the UK for spilling out my feelings.. I did right? But i must say, you're very patience in dealing with me.. Thank you so much~ Well, i'm gonna be your roommie soon, if i'm ever hurting your feelings again, do let me know k? You know, i like to discuss problems and solve that with you instead of putting it in heart.. :)
Lastly, sorry bro.. I FFK you yesterday night and you knew why... I know you've tonnes to spill out and so do i.. But i really dunno how to say.. Well, i may be a good listener (to you only...maybe?) but not a good spiller.. I know you're very busy in your mega project lately..and i can't get to help you at all..really sorry.. When you're free, just give me a ring.. I promise, i will never FFK you this time.. :)
Alright, that's all for the sorries.. I shall balance out with some thank you(s) too~
THANK YOU Kok Hoong!! You've been really wonderful and had really lessen my burden~ You've always been thoughtful and helpful to me.. Really thank you~! I know you don't like me saying this but i really mean it and wanna say it.. :)
"Fei Keen"~!! You've always showing your concern in knocking on my windows whenever you see me in MSN.. I really appreciate that~ But today, i'm really not in the mood of chatting.. That was why i only chatted for awhile.. Anyway, you're gonna be back real soon~! Do enjoy to the fullest in the UK while you still can lo~ ^^
I'm not sure whether you'll be reading this or not.. But well, i'm really happy in receiving your email today.. What a surprise~! Thanks for the song, the photos and your stories~ I'm so touched that you actually remember me because of that band~ Miss you all so much~!! :)
Kellie, i really wanna say thank you for inviting me to watch the MTV World Stage (Hoobastank rocks!! You're right, that girl was Pixie Lott..i just found that out from the newspaper today..haha) and The Proposal (great movie!!and i'm kinda shocked that you actually forgotten watching that with me and asking me to watch it for the second time..lolz)~ Well, i hope you did had fun for the PAINtball as well~ Oh ya, please forgive me for the stupid things that i did last week (fetching you).. :p See you tomorrow~ :)
Serene, Shea Yeong, Jason, Eeffie and Ken, how i wish you guys are here now with me.. I want Hoegaarden, Kronenberg and Carlsberg Export please....... I'm missing the eating & drinking sessions with you guys so much~!!
Alright..it's time for me to 反省 and also to heal myself.....by dreaming.....
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welldone big girl, I think you never know where is the boundaries until you crossed the line. Always take this as a learning oppurtunitiess!!
Don't take stuff too personally, you lose control because you care for them. xD
Have a wonderful day!
Isn't it great to have a pint of lager with friends to solve all the problems. xD
opportunities*
I'm a big girl?! Not a GOOD girl meh?! :p
"Don't take stuff too personally, you lose control because you care for them." I remember you mentioned this phrase to me last time. But i always tend to forget about this philosophy though. haha~
Well, some boundaries are irreversible. Or maybe, close to cliff's end. Once you've crossed that, it's either you're gone forever or there's no turning back. The fact that it's hard to define the boundary lines have led me to an apprehensive stage of speaking. Which is not good i think.
In fact, i'm thinking of a litre of Weissbier and a plate of oven-baked prawns --> The BEST way in solving problems. Lolz!
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